Loosing your muse

Almost two years ago I lost one of my key muses, she was beautiful and full of life until she wasnt. everyday I grasp at art and try to locate the will to draw and create and most days I spend it staring at a blank page trying to will the art gods to speak to me. Some days are worse than others where a great sadness washes over me and I find myself missing her more than I ever thought I would. I think when I lost my mom a part of my artist soul went with her and I gave up....giving into the demon that is artist block. Some days I can sketch and some times even finish an ink illustration.....but I long for the beauty I used to create in color or in pencil and I just stare at the illustrations  hoping and praying they will spring to life through the magic of my pencils, pastels and inks.
Will I ever find another muse or have they abandoned me for good? These are questions I struggle with on a daily bases and perhaps one day the answer will come...just not today.

CAPTURING THE MAGIC AROUND YOU

As children we embrace magic and dreaming and the other day I started thinking about what the one thing I missed from being young and I have to say what I came up with was the wild abandon of dreaming and believing in fairies, Santa, and the Easter bunny.

 I miss that innocence of believing in innocent things that made you dream of what could be.

And then I thought about it more and came to the conclusion I really have not lost that ability to believe and am still holding onto the whimsies of childhood with my art. 

With art I think artist still have that belief that those things exist for honestly it is the only way we illustrate, write books and stories and create them from an imagination that still holds onto that magic! So for all you artist out there who think that they have lost the ability to pretend, dream, and wish I am here to tell you it is still in there you just have to allow it to come out and play.

Just have fun and spend a day chasing fairies and unicorns with a pencil and paper.